Dreams of a Young Lady Squire

[Rukan of Pearlmouth]

The writings and dreams of Rukan of Pearlmouth. A young squire who spends most of her year away from the palace along the border. With only her memories for company.

[Rukan of Pearlmouth]

Today was the ball.... I saw many of my friends, all of whom I hadn't spoken with since the Christmas before. I didn't realize how much I'd actually missed them until I saw them this evening. Everyone seems soooo much taller, and I still haven't grown....

Edward was the When I arrived Edward was standing off by himself at the punch table, sulking from his expression. I soon got the answer why. Annie had basically taken Edwa Annie had come to the ball with Roxas of Naxen, a Queen's Rider who was older than even Edward, well, obviously, as Loki is Roxas' younger brother.

In a way it seems that none of them have matured all that much since I last left. Still fighting for someone to love them. ...but you can't force love... can you??

I suppose that living at the border has made me odd. But, then again, I was left with only my memories, and, dare I say, thoughts on what was going on here and such, to keep me company on boring nights of watch duty.

Great Goddess!! You would think that I'll write again in a little while, when my hand isn't shaking so much and I make more sense.

[Rukan of Pearlmouth]

Put down the book and what happens? I remember another thing that I want/need to rant about!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can be a bit blond when I'm asleep on my feet!

Edward basically said that he wasn't pretty!!!!!!!! Why in Mithros' Mighty Name would he say something as stupid as that!! Sure, Annie might be flirting with Roxas, might even be in love with him! But that gives Eddie no right to say that!!!!

I can't believe that I blushed when Edward brought up the subject of who I liked! I thought that I was past all of that! I thought I had buried it deep! Great Goddess! I thought that I was going to die!!!